THE KNIFE

You touched my life with a softness in the night and my wish was your command. Until you ran out of love...I tell myself I'm free,got the chance of living just for me. No need to hurry home..now that you're gone!

The cuts is like a knife. How will I ever heal? I'm so deeply wounded, you've cut away the heart of my life.

When I pretend ...wear a smile just to fool my dearest friends. I wonder if they know that it's just a show. I'm on a stage day and night doing my charades but how can I disguise what's in my eyes even though I've tried locking up the pain I feel inside..

THE HATRED

I'm culculating the time... I've noticed that the hatred feeling inside me is getting stronger day by day. I dun know myself anymore... its really annoying me to hear about the marriage.. people are proud with their 'acting' what so called as "happiest". But they are dun actually... I HATE THEM!!!!!!

Malang Tidak Berbau

Salam Aidilfitri buat semua.

It has been a long time I haven't written anything to this blog. Time running so fast..now is Sep 10... feels like just yesterday I have been posted here. So many things happen but don't where to start...

Hmm..Nov 09 was my sister's wed... and on last Sep she delivered her baby boy...AMMAR... 3.9 kg if I'm not mistaken... so many advices I could tell her but suddenly i have no guts to tell. The words just don't wanna come out... she have to considered so many things... all I can do is just pray and hopefully she'll be ok. The most incredible was "HE" also get a new baby boy. Nice name he gave to him... Aafter all these years i still can't forget him. Happy knowing that he live in peaceful and happy..

Next, got something was known as "imbalance hormone" that coz me collapse in the bathroom one day, when I woke up, I cried like I never before...like a young child who lost her mother.... Taking the pills that I hate the most..Finally I stopped taking those pills.

Then attended the G3 course. the most interesting course for me...Thru tears and sweat finally managed to finish the course. Can't deny that lot of sweet memories there... always be dear to me...

Finally Ramadhan came and Syawal...I was met an accident..on the 8th Sep 10. Unforgettable moment. I wish that I would died that time... but I'm not..Alhamdulillah. I figure out that this accident has its own hikmah on me.. so sad looking at him "DAU 9642" the real buddy of mine. I owed him so much. I'm so sorry for the words that i have said to you.... thank you for everything. Soon or later I have to leave you somehow...

A NEW WORLD...

Salam to everyone...

Hmm dah lama tak update blog ni.. bukan per bz jer ckit.. Buzy nak settle down everything in a new places that is totally different, "white world"..prior to this the "green world". Being in a new place, aku kekok sedikit. Almaklumlah semua nyer navy people. so it has been almost 2 month going to 3 months... hopefully i could cope with everything. well all i can say it just a bit boring here, all this while i've been working as a teacher, instructor, PR, LO, ADC, ushrer, accountant, BOI-CSI (investigater, warden, busy rushing here and there, doing all the adhoc job etc. But now i'm sitting in the office doing all the staff jobs.. and i tell you.. it's not easy to be a "boss" and its boring!In other words i prefer that hectic rather than sitting on the chair for the whole day... makin gemuklah aku jawabnyer.

Last month.. nothing happen just a retreatment for my promotion..on 15 June 09. Well done Yati. now you're Major... Panglima Pendidikan & Latihan TLDM yang pakaikan tu...hu hu hu. Borat lagi lah tanggungjawab den ni hah... Then we've got an Audit Pengurusan Tahunan bagi MPL (Markas Pendidikan Latihan TLDM).. Got parade and so on. I couldn't believe it that i'm the only ARMY in that parade..tersosat sorang askar kek navy ni. All in white attire except for me, got a bit green color... but on top of that i'm so proud to serve in different service.

Next i'm going to attach at Airforce plak...

Words to Friends

Salam to everybody...

First and foremost i'd like to congrat to Suria Hani for your newly baby born... bertambah lah anak buah aku ni ek hik hik. what eva it is Alhamdulillah cause everything's alright...

Actually when i was in Australia last time there's one memorable event where me and friends have to perform our traditional dance for the International Night. Each country must make their performance. For Malaysia, me and my friend did 2 performances. The first one was Ulik Mayang (we haven't got enough princes) and the other one was Zapin. Our performances were the most awesome..and as Malaysian i was so proud.

So here some words for you guys who had involved directly or indirectly...Thank you so much to our Malaysian Hall and Malaysian Tourism over there for their support. Not forget to my friends from Band De Electras-IJED PD Malaysia. Luckily i had some knowledge about the dance. Me, Capt Aidil, Capt Ely, Maj Sahudin (Pak Din), and Lt Nazri had work hard looking for informations and all sources to ensure this performances were successfull. Thank You Guys! Emm To Raffi (DITC), you're the best!.. thanks for the CD's and your time.

i was so proud to be Malaysian..

An Introduction

Salam buat semua.... welcome to my blog..hu hu

Actually blog ni i bari jer tengah try... baru nk berjinak-jinak.. so in other words it's still under construction...

buat semua gang2 ex-Rotu selamat menjenguk... ini jer yang termampu lagi pun i'm not org yang mengejar technology sangat...

so for the time being that's me the latest version. anything you can keep in touch with me through our blog ex rotu.. k have a nice weekend... anfd happy thaipusam buat yang menyambutnya